Alexandra Nilsson says goodbye to her blog with both a final post and an emotional story in her Youtube video.
She says that she has had her blog for almost 15 years and it is thanks to the blog that she has her career. It is thanks to the blog that she has experienced so much in her life but also so much pain.
The blog Kissie has been a project that she has both loved and hated. Thanks to the blog, people have both loved and hated her since she started it.
She also says that she has usually or always had the attitude that she doesn´t regret anything but she´s happy about everything that has happened and she always learn something from mistakes.
"And it is true. Partly true. But the last few days I´ve been sitting and wondering if I really do not regret anything. To be honest. When I´m thinking of my blog, I feel nothing but disgust for it. I have slowly approached a conclusion that I´ve been terrified of for so long,”says Alexandra.
"The blog for me became a way to become someone else, even if the person in the blog did not become the best, I still became someone," says Alexandra.
I could never have imagined the consequences of that and that this would be my life. I really got an outlet for my desire to be someone. Everything has its time and we start and close different chapters in this life. And I feel it's time to close the blog chapter for good.
I can no longer look back and feel proud of anything. I have felt in recent days that I have regretted starting the blog.
I feel that I´ve been very cocky when I´ve said that I don´t regret anything. But it feels like Sweden will never understand me.
I have never been myself and the media has decided for me who I should be and decided for others how they should think about me.
I hate when people remind me of the past. I don´t like being a celebrity because I can´t do anything mediocre.
One thing that matters when it comes to my personality is that I´m all or nothing. There´s nothing in between.
Right now I feel that the blog has taken everything from me instead of giving me everything. I have often thought that I must be grateful that the blog gave me a chance to become a not-so-ordinary person.
Alexandra goes on to say, as tears flow down her cheeks, that she has worked really hard since she started the blog when she was 15 years old.
She has struggled but time after time encountered adversity. She tries not to be bitter because she has learned through the hard way that bitterness will never benefit one and to feel sorry for oneself does not benefit one either. One must be happy continuously.
I believe that if I want to develop, I have to let go because I will never win this battle.
It's sad that I'm sitting here now giving up. I will delete the blog completely. It will not remain after a while.
Alexandra publishes one last post The journey ends here and there is a small chance that she will create a new blog at some point in the future.
In the very last blog post, Alexandra writes, among other things, as follows:
But I want from the bottom of my heart to thank you for following me all these years. The crazy and by no means mediocre life I have had would not have been possible without you.
I want to thank you who have supported me and not given up hope on me. I am so grateful when you come and tell me about how you have followed the blog and that you still follow me.
Because I will not disappear, I´m on Instagram and Youtube 🙂 So see you there in the future.
Screenshots: youtube/blog/alexandranilsson
